Ride or Die/Playing Pretend

My friend has said something about this chick to me before
so I added her on Facebook.
She'd 'liked' a bunch of my pictures and shit
but we never really talked.
Then I started waking up to these messages
sent at 2 a.m., 3 a.m., etc.
Saying shit like,
'You know, you're my favorite poet?'
'I'd better get a signed copy of your book.'
We ended up chatting online
one late night
around two o'clock, I said, I was gonna crash out.
She said, goodnight and then sent a picture of herself
standing naked in the bathroom mirror.
Then she sent another one. Full body.
The gal looked pretty damn good
light brown skin, long black hair, and big pouty lips.
I jerked off and immediately fell asleep.
The gal had a boyfriend
but she said, that she drawn to me
and that it 'deserves some exploring'.
The fact that she was willing to cheat on her boyfriend
made me not like her already.
However, all I had been doing was
wiping asses at the nursing home and sitting in my trailer writing,
so when she asked to come over
one Sunday afternoon
I said, 'sure why not?'
I was really surprised at how she was in person
not at all what I expected.
From her Facebook
she seemed like just another spoiled little hipster girl
so I was surprised when we got to talking
the lady had grown up hard.
A Mexican girl
with a dead mom and a bunch of baggage
lots of ghetto tales & wild nights
so we got along great
the conversation flowed.
In-between bowls of weed and cigarettes.
But she didn't mention her boyfriend
talked about everything but him
in fact.
We were listening to some 80's electro & hip-hop
the kinda songs you heard at the roller rink as a kid
Skateland jams.
'Computer Love' by Zapp & Roger came on.
While I was in mid-sentence
stuttering on a word
she pounced on me.
Pressing her mouth to mine.
Which was great
I love it when women do that.
It's one of the greatest feelings in the world
and they rarely do it.
We made out on the couch
getting hot and heavy
I didn't even say anything
just stood up and put my hand out to her.
She took it and I led her to the bedroom.
We stripped down
and got on with it.
Her bent over
my fist clenched tight on her ponytail
pulling back
as she called my name out loud.
Nothing too out of the ordinary
or particularly great
just a sport fuck.
A fuck for fuck's sake.
So imagine my surprise
when just three days later
she posted a picture of her engagement tattoos
with her fiance.
You know
I really don't know how they do it.
Men & Women.

People.
To go on, like everything is fine.
To pretend like it never happened
to pretend that their love is true.
Pretending to be
ride or die
with their bullshit lies.