Special Ed Math, Speech, Aliens, & Past Lives w/ Mrs.Murphy

Reading & writing came very easily to me

I was ahead of the class on that

but math made no sense to me whatsoever.

I also had a really bad stutter.

So during fifth grade

once a day

I was sent to a special tutor

in a little room with two other kids 

to work on math and my speech.

The lady tutor was a fat lady with long grey hair

and thick glasses in old silver frames.

She'd have me work on some math problems

using an old, green screen, computer using a circus themed math program.

A lot of the time, when my work was done

her and I would just sit and talk.

About commonplace stuff most of the time,

but then one day

she started telling me about 

her encounters with extraterrestrials

the strange test and experiments

that were performed on her

She said, that she had given birth

to an alien/human hybrid.

I was a kid and she was an adult, so I believed her.

Why would she make that up?

"Where's your alien baby now?"

"Well, they took it away the moment he was born and then they sent me back to Earth. So...I don't really know what happened to my baby."

The next day, Mrs.Murphy explained to me

reincarnation

and told me about how in one of her previous lives

she was a Buddhist monk.

A man.

That one was really confusing to me.

So later that night at home

I asked my Mom about it

told her what Mrs.Murphy had said

and my Mom just got mad.

Said she was gonna go to the principal and shit.

I begged her not to

to please not to

that it was secret and I wasn't supposed to tell anyone.

But she went to the school the next day

and after that day

I never saw Mrs.Murphy again.

I couldn't help but feel bad.

Even though my mom and the principal

said that Mrs.Murphy made it all up

and was sick in the head

I still wished I had never said anything.

Mrs.Murphy was nice to me

and I hate thinking about her sitting at home

without a job.

It was all my fault

and I've never stopped feeling guilty about it.

Seventeen years later, I still feel the same.